Comments on: Sickness

By: christian

christian — Thu, 12 May 2016 04:15:06 +0000

this work helped me a lot a couple years ago, have been paying it frequent visits since. thanks for doing what you do :)

By: m

Thu, 25 Jul 2013 22:43:42 +0000

I am a game developer.

You are a huge inspiration to me.

I hope you feel better and that your work continues.

By: Tyrone Slothrop

Tyrone Slothrop — Tue, 28 May 2013 03:47:41 +0000

I was just reading Gravity’s Rainbow about 20 minutes ago. Neat. Anyway, I hope you start feeling better because I love your work and you seem like a great person.

By: stephen lavelle

stephen lavelle — Tue, 21 May 2013 14:52:04 +0000

It’s sure worth something, thanks :)

By: Bennett

Bennett — Tue, 21 May 2013 13:38:17 +0000

For what little it’s worth, the thing you’re working on now is incredibly beautiful (to me, anyway).

By: L

Mon, 20 May 2013 02:29:50 +0000

I saw another typo: “Have you been spending lots of time in be stilld?”

By: stephen lavelle

stephen lavelle — Sun, 19 May 2013 22:56:42 +0000

typo fixed, thanks for mentioning it : )

as for the rest, sorry to hear you’ve gone through that stuff. one must struggle on…

By: Ava Avane Dawn

Ava Avane Dawn — Sun, 19 May 2013 15:09:13 +0000

Somehow, this turned up on my RSS-feed just today.

There is one typo in the game:

“You think still have a chance at that, even if it’s just a small one.”

Also: “If you’re not going to get better, you might as well spend your time working at the expense of your long term health, because you’re fucked in the long term regardless.”

I recognize that thinking quite much, going back and forth between not giving a shit about feeling well because it’s not enough for justifying it instead of working ones ass off, thus not feeling very well later on (since the future is fucked), and feeling that it’s important to take care of myself today and not over-exert myself so that the rest of the week gets fucked… Five years and going with awesome (in the sense of great, grand–ah you know what I mean) fatigue every day, making it almost impossible to do anything of value, work, study, etc. I used to be able to manage by stressing myself so badly that I wouldn’t fall asleep. Now I feel those times are over, and that in the long-term that’s really not gonna make any positive difference. The last doctor I saw still claims that sitting at home all the time is bad for my health, and so I should go out and do some work, why not 8 hours a day even? Yeah, catch 22 alright.

I wish you all the luck man, if the story is biographical then I’d like to tell you that you’ve done lots of beautiful things already. Perhaps making the grandest of statements in one magnum opus of epic scope isn’t what’s in our paths, but just day-to-day beauty and goodness, pieces of connection, of life, of art.